Life as it is

My life is consumed of sleepless nights, changing diapers, feeding and talking to my daughter. The most amazing thing happen to me this year............. I became a MOM! Life changed so drastically last August 2007 when Ervin and I found out we were going to have a baby. My head was definitely spinning and I had no idea what I was in for. For ten months I was faced with many different emotions. I was scared, nervous, excited, antipated, worried and so much more. Despite all my emotions God prepared my heart through out my pregnancy and blessed ervin and I in so many ways. We found out November 4, 2007 that we were going to have a girl! We decided we would name her Syniah Grace. I think the most exciting part of my pregnancy was feeling Syniah move and kick but most of all I loved when she had hiccups. I would talk to her a lot when I was pregnant and play music for her. It was ten months of wondering what she would look like and wondering how her personality would be. On April 13,2008 our princess was born. Syniah is perfect! Each day I become more and more in love with her. My favorite part of the day is watching her smile as I talk to her or when I see her eyes follow me as I walk by her. I have never known love like the love I have for my Daughter and I thank God for giving me a healthy and beautiful little girl. She is lots of work and keeps me busy but at the end of the day it all becomes worth it. She is my life! I feel so blessed!

WEDNESDAY............

There are still two more days until the weekend and it seams way too long. Today we went to visit Ervin's cousin who has a baby only a few days older than Niah. Syniah had a great time. She was such a happy baby and so excited. She loves babies! She is overall such a happy baby. I love her so much. This has already felt like such a long week. I want to rest. I am tired of the crazy traffic this week. Why the heck do I drive all the way to Orange County for a job that keeps me further away from my baby?? I miss her more and more everyday. She is growing and I am missing out :( I love my little family here. I wish there was more time in the day to enjoy each other to the fullest........................ I can't wait for the weekend. I can't wait till God provides me with a job closer to home that provides me with both contentment and financially stability to be able to see my Monkey more. 2 more days till Friday....................

CRABBY-PATTIE

Niah was cranky tonight. I think she is coming down with something. She has a little fever. My poor Monkey. Hasn't she been through enough? I really don't feel like working tomorrow I am so over it. I want to cuddle my monkey. She is such a Mama's girl lately. I can't walk out of the room without her whining. She is so spoiled it's my fault though. She is only a baby once and I can't help to give her my undivided attention. I love her. She is my sweet pea. She is getting so big though. We went to a restaurant today and sat her in the high chair for the first time. She didn't do too well though. She kept falling sideways. I guess she is still little in someways. After eating we took Niah to the library for the first time. I am so excited about all Niah's firsts. I hope she loves the Library. I hope she loves to read! She just looked around. We actually didn't even check out books we rented Baby Einstein videos. They are her favorite. Niah is Finally sleeping. Lets hope she doesn't wake up with a fever..................................

"Amazing SYNIAH Grace"

Amazing grace

How sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost, but now I'm found

Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear

And grace my fears relieved

How precious did that grace appear

The hour I first believed

My chains are gone

I've been set free

My God, my Savior has ransomed me

And like a flood His mercy reigns

Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me

His word my hope secures

He will my shield and portion be

As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow

The sun forbear to shine

But God, Who called me here below

Will be forever mine

Will be forever mine

You are forever mine