Niah's Field trip to the Pumpkin Patch

Niah's Preschool Halloween Party

OCTOBER 13, 2011

HAPPY 1/2 BIRTHDAY OUR LOVING AND CRAZY 

SYNIAH GRACE

She definitely is not your typical 3 year old. 

I love her most for her uniqueness 

Everyday her heart grows bigger. She has this amazing love for people. We really are blessed to have a daughter like her.

6 more months until you are 4............... Let the party planning begin! 

The best example

Lately I am trying hard to be a good Mom and keep my composure at the same time. It is a difficult thing to do. Some days I want to cuddle my babies all day long and watch them play and make a mess and some days I want some quiet time alone to drink a cup of coffee or scream. It's hard for me to be a stay at home Mom. It's hard to go from 40+ hours a week of work where you felt like somebody, kids needed me, parents needed me, I had self worth. To somebody who works at home 100+ hours a week where your job is to cook, clean, change diapers, clean, clean, did I mention clean? I think being a full time Mom makes me completely self-less. That's hard for me. I need to work. Working is what I do.  I find me in my work.  My work restores my sense of self, my balance in my world.  Part of who I am is because I work. I really am jealous of REAL stay-at-home moms.  Not because they get to stay at home with their kids, but because they can, without going certifiably insane.
I have the best example in my life and that is My Best friend and Nina to my kids, Tanya. She is the most amazing beautiful mother I know..............

How do you have 5 kids, one being a newborn and still manage to look gorgeous and seam as though you have it all together?

SuperMom

She is My girls Godmother. I did remember thinking, "Could she really love my daughter when she has 3 kids of her own?" but she has been amazing and has loved her as if she is her own. We were both pregnant at the same time when I got pregnant with Leilah and she was on her 4th pregnancy with Luke..........."maybe she will forget about my Niah, "How can somebody with 4 kids possibly have time for a kid who isn't their own?" Luke came and Tanya never stopped taking her role as Niah's Nina seriously  then Leilah came and when we were deciding who her Godparents would be Tanya was never even in question we just knew. "How can somebody with 4 kids love and have time for not only one but now two Godchildren?" 

SuperMOM

that's who. 

With a 6 day old newborn she still managed to be there on Niah's first day of Preschool.

Now she has 5 kids and loves my girls unconditionally and is always thinking of them. She manages to be a stay at home Mom, stay beautiful and keep it all together.

Do I have the best example of what an amazing stay at home Mom should be?

Of Course I do.

I just wish I could live up to that kind of Mom. It's definitely a hard act to follow.............

What we have been up to

Lately life has been crazy busy.

Preschool
Diaper Changes
Whining
Photo shoots
Cleaning
Sister fights
Packing lunch
Park
Friends
Parties
The list can go on........................

We have managed to get in some cuddles and tea parties in between. Niah is doing extremely well in Preschool and Leilah is becoming extremely clingy (hasn't she always been?).

Happy Thursday!

SCHOOL

She loves school

I prayed for a girl

1 Samuel 1:27

"For this child I prayed and the Lord has granted me my petition which I asked of Him."

1 Samuel 1:27

I remember growing up and hoping one day God would put a girl in my life. I grew up the majority of my life surrounded by a bunch of boy cousins and two big brothers. I always desired to have a girl one day. When I played babies I would always pretend I had girls. I loved holding friends or families babies girls and loved looking at baby girl clothes. Wondering if one day I would ever get a little girl. I had always thought that I would be destined to be the one who had lots of boys. The CURSE of the boys in my life! God knew the desires of my heart. ONE DAY A HEALTHY GIRL....OF COURSE!  When I found out I was pregnant and everybody asked me what I wanted, I would just say "healthy." Deep inside my heart wanted a girl. I couldn't hide my desire from God. I prayed for my baby everyday. I would pray my baby was healthy. I didn't need to ask God for a girl..............cause he already knew. 

 The Lord did hear my prayers, and He did give me my hearts' desire. I will be forever grateful. He blessed me X's 2


I love these girl more than I could have ever imagined or dreamed of.

These two are crazy but I couldn't imagine my life with any other little girls than these two crazy ones.

They are Best Friends

They are the Sister's I never had

They drive me CRAZY

They make huge Messes

They Fight

Together they are DOUBLE TROUBLE

For Example...

I knew they were way too quiet in their room................

Niah climbed in with Leilah and they were having tea! So... they say!

It was more like throwing ever toy they owned in Leilah's crib and jumping around and throwing everything!

I remind my self in the midst of the craziness
These are the little girls I prayed for.

"For this child I prayed and the Lord has granted me my petition which I asked of Him."

1 Samuel 1:27