Sleepless Night!

The past two nights Leilah has kept us up. She is really fighting her sleep these days. She takes like 15 minute cat naps. At night she wants to sleep in my arms. Which is not so comfortable for me but I do it so she sleeps. She is such a good baby when she is not tired or hungry! When she is tired or hungry she is very demanding. Such a screamer! I think lately she is testing my patience..... which is something I have but lack of sleep makes it hard for me to function. She is still sleeping and it's already going to be 11:00 am! She sure is making up for her sleepless night, but now that she is asleep...Big Sister Syniah is awake! Wonder if I will ever sleep again :(

Mother's Day 2010

If you asked me 4 years ago if I would be a mother of 2 by the age 27 I would have laughed at you. I always knew I wanted to be a mom. I always had that desire but never really knew when I would want to be a mom. God had his own plans for me. I was a mama to Syniah Grace at 25 and a Mama to Leilah Faith at 26. I wouldn't change that for the world. My whole life I prayed to have a little girl. Being in a home and family surround by boy cousins and brothers i always imagined myself to be the one who would have a bunch of sons and never have that girl I desired so much in my life. God Answered my prayers. He gave me two amazing little girls. The little girls that I could have only dreamt of many years ago. It's not always easy. I have my days where I want to pull my hair out but these are MY GIRLS. For the rest of their life I will be their Mama and I am so grateful. I look at them and think "How am I so lucky to be their Mama?" I have Syniah Grace who is so sweet and filled with so much love to give but so independent and I have Leilah Faith who is quiet and smiley and needs extra love and attention. I would have never thought to be a Mother of 2 at 27 but gosh...... I am a lucky women. I am their Mama for the rest of their lives. I just pray to always have an open and honest relationship with them. I want them to know they can always come to me and I will never judge them or put them down despite their mistakes or imperfections but I will show them tough love at the same time. I can't thank God enough for them and just pray he guides me to be a good and wise Mom. I am a Mother. I am not perfect, but I try my hardest to be the best I can be for them. I love every part of it (except for the sleepless night, but I know one day I will look back and miss it). This has changed my life forever. I am a better person because of my daughters and I thank them for that. This is just the beginning of our life together and I truly am excited for what is ahead. Looking forward to all the laughs, tears, and happiness of a mother daughter relationship. The relationship I dreamt of one day having with my daughter when I was a little girl. It's My 3rd Mother's Day and I couldn't be anymore thankful for my beautiful baby girls.
  
 My pretty Princesses on Mother's Day. (Leilah eyeing Niah's cupcake)
My first Mother's day with my Leilah-bug

Sisters

Watching my girls during times like this truly melts my heart. I never had a sister but I think this is the relationship I long for. I am glad my Daughters can experience it. (Niah reading explaining to Leilah that she whould use the potty "Maybe Niah should take her own advice" what a good Big Sister)

Happy 2nd Birthday My Syniah Grace

To my baby girl, Syniah, on her 2nd birthday.

On August 24th, 2008, I found out news that would change my life forever for the better. I found out I was pregnant with you, my sweet little Syniah. I didn't know you were a girl, but oh my gosh was I thrilled to hold you in my belly. I loved feeling you grow. I would sit there watching tv or driving and I would just hold my hand over my belly. I would listen to music in the car and you would move as if you were already dancing in my belly. With every kick and roll and tickle, I grew more and more in love with the little person growing inside. You were a stubborn one even then. Every time your dada came to feel you kick you would suddenly stop kicking. I knew when I went for my ultrasound to find out if you were going to be a boy or a girl and you hide your face, that you were going to do things your way. You weren't going to be pressured into doing anything you weren't fully ready for. And that was true from that moment on... even still now. I expected you to come early and I thought I would never be ready. But you weren't ready quite yet. When we went for our last doctors visit on a Monday Dr. Be told us you were breech. He told us if we were ready to have a baby that weekend. I was scared. I knew you were coming but the thought of becoming a mama that weekend made me nervous. I had to have a C-section. I was scared but more anxious to meet you, to see how you look but most of all just to hold you and bring you home. I can still hear you Dada saying "here she comes sweets.... i see her feet." As you were pulled out at 10:11am on April 13th, 2008 he then was in awe of the fact that you came out with so much hair. "Sweets she has lots of hair!" You didn't cry right away. You were very calm. It wasn't until a couple minutes later that I heard your cry. That is the moment it that is became real "I have a Daughter." With your head of dark hair and your , dark brown eyes and light skin. You were absolutely perfect. Nothing about your birth was ordinary and absolutely nothing about you is ordinary. You are everything I have always longed for in a daughter. Big beautiful brown eyes, chubby kissable cheeks, soft brown curls, a little wild but cuddly and sweet, super funny, sensitive and loving and so, so smart. Not only smart, feisty as well. I love that about you. You have amazed us so much every single day with the progress you've made in your little life. I can't get over how many people love you so deeply and how many people you love back. You have this way of brightening any room that you enter. your truly have and amazing personality.

This year you did so many new things that it's hard to keep track:

~You began to walk at 15 months

~ You Attended Kindercare where you learned so much and made lots of crafts and learn lots of songs.

~You were a bumble-bee for Halloween

~You inherited a love of Disneyland because we got season passes on your 1st birthday and you love Minnie Mouse.

~You gained and immediately loved your new baby sister Leilah and best friend for life. You call her "Yeah-Ya" and are very nurturing and loving towards her but don't always enjoy her crying and tend to tell her " Yea-Ya NO MORE CRY." You are always trying to give her a pacifier and tend to her needs. You are a great Big Sister. I want nothing more than for you girls to form a lifelong bond that nothing can ever break.

~You loved your baby dolls so much. You never were without at least 2 dolls at a time. You're such a little momma.

~You love watching Mickey Mouse Club House, Dora the Explorer, Yo Gabba Gabba, Barney and you had a short Wiggles and Elmo Phase.

~ You have this love for Music and Dancing. You love to dance around and you have such cute Rhythm

~ You started Gymnastics this year and love it but you are still working on listening and waiting your turn.

~ Your favorite Phrase "Dada....Dada.... RAWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRR"

There are a TON of things you have done this year and learned. You have made your Dada and I very proud. We are so proud to have a daughter that has such a big heart and makes of smile and drives us crazy all at the same time. And so now, on your 2nd birthday, I want to tell you that I will always be here for you, when you want to read a book or cuddle. Or when you fall and get an OUCH. When you wake up at 3AM crying because you "Want MAMA." I will always hold you and keep you close to me. But I will also try to let you go and discover the big world around you, I know you need that. As you experience and live your little life, please always know, I am your BIGGEST fan. I want everything in this world that's good and kind for you. You, my love, are the one that made all my dreams come true. You made me a MOM. I still can't believe sometimes when I look at you that you are my daughter. I am the mom of a daughter. I can never thank you enough for that. I am forever grateful. You are so special. Don't you ever forget that.

Always and Forever, Mama

Luke's Baptism

Today was Luke's Baptism and our first real time taking Leilah out. It was a misson to get out of the house with both girls but we made it just on time. I love Baptisms. There is something about the ceremonies that are so much more meaningful than christian dedications. So I did enjoy it. The girls were good. We were able to get Leilah and Luke to lake a picture together.

Aren't they cute? 8 Days apart.

The Kiddies at church

Little photoshoot of my Girls

  Turned out to be a great one! Look at this smile!

 and these little toes............

and that little tougne

But this one is my favorite...............My sweet Leilah Faith

Can't forget Big Sister

And these little toes

These sweet kisses

Love you Sister

 These girls melt my heart...........

 What a great day!