Off to the doctor we go..........

Syniah's fever hasn't went down. Motrin isn't working. The doctor did blood work today to check to see if she has a UTI or something else. They also did a stool test. I really hope they find out soon. My poor baby she is so hot.

My pumpkin and her ouchie.

Ouch

Not a happy sickie girl.

Always a smile

Syniah is very sick. She is burning. A bit sluggish. Super smiley.

No matter how high her temp has gone this weekend our little Grace has been super smiley. You would never know she was burning until you felt her. She is such a happy baby, seeing her any other way would make me even more sad. She is still playing. That's a good sign I hope. I hope we get answers from the doctor.This sweet peanut needs to be a 100% soon.

Does this baby look like she has 103 fever?

Lady and Niah cuddles

Sick Niah Grace

This morning Niah woke up burning. She has never had fever like this before. 104 fever. I called the doctor right away and they told me they were booked and to come in on Monday. So I gave Niah Motrin but her fever never really went down. Monday can't come fast enough. Please Jesus put your healing hand over my baby. She is so hot. I am a first time Mom. I am not really sure what to do.

Cool cloths.

A sick red cheek baby...

Babysitting Lil Miss Alyssa

I am so blessed to have such an amazing group of friends. Friends that I have experienced growing up with and friends that I have entered motherhood with. We have all had so much fun growing up. We did the high school parties. We got into trouble together. We got our hearts broken together. We graduated togehter. We went to college together. We got our very first apartment together. We ditched class to lay in bed and watch Oprah. We have laughed so much our stomach hurts. We have had so really great times. God really did bless me with great friends but more than friends he has blessed me with Sisters. We have experienced life together but have never experienced so much joy until we became Mothers together. It is so amazing to watch my friends take on their new roles as Moms and even more amazing to watch our babies grow up together. Today I got a good look into one of the many playdates Syniah will have with Alyssa. I got to baby sit her today and I had so much fun. Syniah is 5 months and only rolling over and Alyssa is 6 months and sitting up and crawling but Niah tried so hard to keep up with her today. The girls played and giggled. They were so good. My only challenge was trying to put them to sleep at the same time but like a pro I did it and was pretty proud of myself. I kept trying to think how they will be when they start talking or what it will be like when they are 5. My prayer for these girls is that they always remain friends. That they love eachother and grow up like family. Having great friends is such a special thing I hope they grow up loving and supporting eachother they way their Moms have all these years. Today was so special to me. I adore these girls together. Two absolutely beautiful little girls. So glad God chose us to be their Mamas.

First Daycare Fever!

When I picked up Syniah from Kindercare today they told me she was a bit warm. Sure enough she was. I knew daycare would get the best of her I just didn't expect it to be this soon. She has been going for less than two weeks. It doesn't suprise me because there is always a kid with boogers running down their nose. I got to work. Ervin has to work. This is a great facility with great teachers. We need to send her there but man........can those germs stay away from my 5 month old baby? Ugh. So frustrating.

Not the happiest camper :(

Poor pumpkin.

  

You know Niah is sick if she has her head down like this. She is always so playful.

Breaks my heart.

As a Mom my heart breaks knowing I have to send her to daycare. I wish I could be home with her and keep her safe from germs and  kids boogers, but I go to work everyday for her. I just hope I can keep reminding myself of that and believing that it is the right thing. Hardest thing I have gone through as a parent so far, is leaving my baby.

Five Months..........She is a big girl now!

How time has flown by. Just 5 months ago I was walking into the hospital to deliver my baby girl. She was so small and absolutely perfect since the day she was born. She has changed so much and has been developing into such a smart baby. She started to roll over five days ago and she now eats apples and avocados. She also started drinking from a sippy cup on 9/12/08. She is such a happy baby girl. She can brighten up any room and can turn my bad days upside down. I went back to work a week and a half ago and it has been the hardest thing I have ever done. My heart hurtsts more than I could have ever imagined. I cry everyday on my way to work and get teary eyed when I am at work just thinking about her. Sometimes I think "Why would I bring a child into the world when I am not financially stable enough to stay home with her and watch her grow?" I am missing out on so much and she is just so little. Words can't explain how much pain and emotion I have been through this past week. I am depressed just thinking about going to work on Monday. Gosh.............................................. Syniah started Kindercare on Monday September 8, 2008. She is doing great. She is really good there and is actually falling asleep on her own! I can't get her to do that at home! The childcare workers at that facility are great with her. I don't worry about her at all but it doesn't stop my tears from rolling down as I drop her off. I can't wait to get off work. I watch the clock the entire day and I count down the minutes until I get to drive home to pick her up. When I arrive to Kindercare and walk though those doors and see her smiling face it makes every bit of motherhood worth it.

The one bad thing about sending her starting daycare is that Syniah got sick 3 days into being into being there. They say that is normal. She had 102 fever and a really bad runny nose and congestion. She has been spending the last two days sleeping and sniffling. Niah is very uncomfortable and seems so sad. It makes me feel guilty. If Syniah just didn't go to daycare maybe then she wouldn't be sick...........................................

Syniah is my life. She means more to me than anything else in this world and as a mother I feel that its my job to not only protect her, comfort, and soothe her. Its hard to do all that 40 miles away from her when I am work everyday. I pray that God provides for us in a way that causes me to be home with my baby girl

My monkey is Five Months... Can you believe it??

Niah eating avocados 9/13/08

Niah's first bowl of cereal

Dada feeding Niah her first bowl of cereal. Niah didn't know how she felt about cereal.