Sleepless Night!

The past two nights Leilah has kept us up. She is really fighting her sleep these days. She takes like 15 minute cat naps. At night she wants to sleep in my arms. Which is not so comfortable for me but I do it so she sleeps. She is such a good baby when she is not tired or hungry! When she is tired or hungry she is very demanding. Such a screamer! I think lately she is testing my patience..... which is something I have but lack of sleep makes it hard for me to function. She is still sleeping and it's already going to be 11:00 am! She sure is making up for her sleepless night, but now that she is asleep...Big Sister Syniah is awake! Wonder if I will ever sleep again :(

Mother's Day 2010

If you asked me 4 years ago if I would be a mother of 2 by the age 27 I would have laughed at you. I always knew I wanted to be a mom. I always had that desire but never really knew when I would want to be a mom. God had his own plans for me. I was a mama to Syniah Grace at 25 and a Mama to Leilah Faith at 26. I wouldn't change that for the world. My whole life I prayed to have a little girl. Being in a home and family surround by boy cousins and brothers i always imagined myself to be the one who would have a bunch of sons and never have that girl I desired so much in my life. God Answered my prayers. He gave me two amazing little girls. The little girls that I could have only dreamt of many years ago. It's not always easy. I have my days where I want to pull my hair out but these are MY GIRLS. For the rest of their life I will be their Mama and I am so grateful. I look at them and think "How am I so lucky to be their Mama?" I have Syniah Grace who is so sweet and filled with so much love to give but so independent and I have Leilah Faith who is quiet and smiley and needs extra love and attention. I would have never thought to be a Mother of 2 at 27 but gosh...... I am a lucky women. I am their Mama for the rest of their lives. I just pray to always have an open and honest relationship with them. I want them to know they can always come to me and I will never judge them or put them down despite their mistakes or imperfections but I will show them tough love at the same time. I can't thank God enough for them and just pray he guides me to be a good and wise Mom. I am a Mother. I am not perfect, but I try my hardest to be the best I can be for them. I love every part of it (except for the sleepless night, but I know one day I will look back and miss it). This has changed my life forever. I am a better person because of my daughters and I thank them for that. This is just the beginning of our life together and I truly am excited for what is ahead. Looking forward to all the laughs, tears, and happiness of a mother daughter relationship. The relationship I dreamt of one day having with my daughter when I was a little girl. It's My 3rd Mother's Day and I couldn't be anymore thankful for my beautiful baby girls.
  
 My pretty Princesses on Mother's Day. (Leilah eyeing Niah's cupcake)
My first Mother's day with my Leilah-bug

Sisters

Watching my girls during times like this truly melts my heart. I never had a sister but I think this is the relationship I long for. I am glad my Daughters can experience it. (Niah reading explaining to Leilah that she whould use the potty "Maybe Niah should take her own advice" what a good Big Sister)